Empty myself and be filled with the Holy Spirit!

Here's my reflection this week.

Went for the 2nd night of the conference and heard this from God. I realised I'd been crying non-stop everytime I start to worship God in church and even during CG meetings. Tears just flow so freely out of me. Yes I'm touched. But it's a different kind of feelings. I felt burdened. At 1st I thought I was burdened about my CG. Then I realised I was burdened about myself. As I worshiped Him on Wednesday at the end of the message, tears flow out again. I asked myself, "Why am I crying so much?" Then I heard God answered me, "Empty yourself and be filled with the Holy Spirit. If you don't do that, you rob My people of My blessings."

I have to empty myself of all my pride, fears and everything, so that the Holy Spirit can fill me and empower me to do things that I can't do by my own strength. I loved what Huiling told me when I shared this with her: "There won't be impartation from your Spirit to whoever you want to minister to when you are yet to be emptied out. So, be freed!" Wow! How true! I went back and had a great fellowship with God. Felt so much better after worshiping Him.

Last night, it was a totally different feeling. I was so touched by what God is doing through Pastor Kong, Pastor Sun and the church. People in the world only see the glamorous side of their lives and the church. They've never seen the hard times that we go through together as a church. We are tried and tested so many times by the outside world. I am so thankful that I am PLANTED in City Harvest Church. This is a place that God has called me to serve and love Him in. I'm rooted in this House of God. It's such an awesome place.

While Pastor Phil was praying for Pastor Kong and Pastor Sun, I heard God told me to listen and receive it in my Spirit too. Whatever that is prayed for, is meant for me too. I am "mentioned" in that prayer too! I am among the thousands of women that Pastor Sun is going to raise up to do God's work! No words can express the thankfulness that I have for God who has given me the privilege to serve and grow together with the leadership in City Harvest! What an exciting time that we are living in.

I want to grow closer and closer to Him and be commited to the people that He has placed in my life to bless and uphold. I LOVE YOU, ABBA FATHER!